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My body and my weight have been an issue for me as long as I can remember.  One of my earliest memories in elementary school is looking at the other girls in my class and thinking I was bigger than them. Over the years, I have tried pretty much every diet out there, oftentimes with initial success, only to gain back the weight plus a little.

All that has changed now. In the last few years, I have lost 40+ pounds, through working out and following an eating plan that has taught me all about food and how I can eat to maximize fat loss. I can now say I have victory over my food/eating issues. I no longer worry about being overweight. It has taken a great deal of determination to get to this point and I finally feel free from the issues that have been “weighing” me down.

I have to be determined to take control of my thoughts. Those little voices in my head, my self-talk is loud and can be really harsh at times. I would never say to other people what I sometimes tell myself. I have to capture those negative thoughts when they happen and re-direct them. Lysa TerKeurst says in her book, Made to Crave, ‘I am made for more.’ That’s right. God made me in His image. I am a child of God, forgiven and set free. It helps me to remember scripture, and surround myself with people who support my goals and dreams, who will build me up and speak truth to me.

“For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ.” I Corinthians 10:4-5 (emphasis added)

egoAlong those same lines, I have had to be determined in changing my perspective. I used to say “I can’t” often, particularly when it came to fitness. ‘I’m not coordinated enough’, or ‘that’s too hard.’ It took me years to try a group exercise class. I have learned to ‘check my ego’ at the door when I come to the gym. I started trying new classes and exercises and you know what I discovered: I LOVE to workout. I am in the best shape of my life. I was so self-conscious as a teenager, I never played any sports or was very active at all. I will be 40 years old this year, yet I feel younger than ever. I try new exercises regularly.  Sometimes I am successful, while other times I fall on my face, literally. But I am okay with that. I laugh at myself and enjoy learning new things.

I am so grateful to be free of this “bondage” to food and eating issues, and to be able to focus on how God wants me to live and how I can serve Him. My hope and prayer moving forward:

  • that I will be a healthy role model for my family, particularly my daughter
  • that God will use me to encourage others in their own health/fitness journeys

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12 Comments

  1. Thanks, Cindy! I admire your determination! It has helped fuel mine! :). I know God will bless your efforts to honor Him in these areas of your life, and to encourage others!

  2. Thank you for sharing this

  3. Love your goals moving forward. They echo my own! 🙂 Good job on your journey!!

  4. This is the best thing I’ve read today! I LOVE your positive attitude and your approach to change. The picture of the sign really helped me, too. I hadn’t thought of ego being what sometimes holds me back from pushing through and trying something new–but when I read this I knew that was a big part of the problem. Congratulations on an incredible journey toward health–and may God continue to work through you in your sphere of influence.

  5. “Check your ego at the door” is probably what I needed to read today! My ego is what stops me – not thinking that I’m too good to do things, but that I’m not good enough. Nobody is good enough! But, God is – and He wants the best for me.

  6. I love your sense of adventure in keeping fit and healthy! Such an attitude amps up the fun, even on days when we would rather curl up and ignore the yoga mat. Thank you for sharing. Check out my post on determination here: http://www.groundswellministries.org/2014/01/29/on-living-convinced-and-determined/

  7. Love your blog today. “Check your ego at the door” is a phrase I will have to remember. You have given me inspiration to continue my journey.

  8. Cindy, I randomly picked to read your blog today for the blog hop and I’m so thankful I did. I know God definitely led me here. I also compared myself to other girls growing up, mostly my sister who has always been very thin, and it really did a number on my self-esteem. I eventually just gave up. But I’m now almost to the age at which you started your weight loss journey, and if you can do it, so can I. I am just as capable as anyone else, and I too have the power of the almighty God to help me through. Thank you so much for your post and I pray you continue to push through trying new things.

  9. Thank you for sharing!

  10. Congratulations!!
    Loved reading your post !

  11. Check your ego at the door…that is a great way to approach fitness. I love the idea of just giving it what you have and not comparing yourself to everyone else. Thanks for the encouragement.

  12. Wow Cindy!! You are an inspiration. As you know, I just recently started at the gym. I even went two days in a row. Today was my rest day, but since we went on a field trip for work and I was pulling kids on sleds up and down slopes, I think I can consider that a workout :). I’ve come up with a workout plan that works for me for now, because I do not want to overdue it. I will increase time at the gym as I go. I am not sure about taking classes, but it is something I am willing to consider down the line. I have taken a Zumba class and loved it before. It has always been a goal of mine to attempt a kickboxing class, but I never thought I would get in good enough shape to try it. So along with running my first 5k, I am going to also take my first kickboxing class this spring. 🙂

    God Bless!

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