My body and my weight have been an issue for me as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories in elementary school is looking at the other girls in my class and thinking I was bigger than them. Over the years, I have tried pretty much every diet out there, oftentimes with initial success, only to gain back the weight plus a little.
All that has changed now. In the last few years, I have lost 40+ pounds, through working out and following an eating plan that has taught me all about food and how I can eat to maximize fat loss. I can now say I have victory over my food/eating issues. I no longer worry about being overweight. It has taken a great deal of determination to get to this point and I finally feel free from the issues that have been “weighing” me down.
I have to be determined to take control of my thoughts. Those little voices in my head, my self-talk is loud and can be really harsh at times. I would never say to other people what I sometimes tell myself. I have to capture those negative thoughts when they happen and re-direct them. Lysa TerKeurst says in her book, Made to Crave, ‘I am made for more.’ That’s right. God made me in His image. I am a child of God, forgiven and set free. It helps me to remember scripture, and surround myself with people who support my goals and dreams, who will build me up and speak truth to me.
“For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ.” I Corinthians 10:4-5 (emphasis added)
Along those same lines, I have had to be determined in changing my perspective. I used to say “I can’t” often, particularly when it came to fitness. ‘I’m not coordinated enough’, or ‘that’s too hard.’ It took me years to try a group exercise class. I have learned to ‘check my ego’ at the door when I come to the gym. I started trying new classes and exercises and you know what I discovered: I LOVE to workout. I am in the best shape of my life. I was so self-conscious as a teenager, I never played any sports or was very active at all. I will be 40 years old this year, yet I feel younger than ever. I try new exercises regularly. Sometimes I am successful, while other times I fall on my face, literally. But I am okay with that. I laugh at myself and enjoy learning new things.
I am so grateful to be free of this “bondage” to food and eating issues, and to be able to focus on how God wants me to live and how I can serve Him. My hope and prayer moving forward:
- that I will be a healthy role model for my family, particularly my daughter
- that God will use me to encourage others in their own health/fitness journeys